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Perhaps this was Heaven’s Will working in mysterious ways, ordaining that the piece of jade be left behind in that tiny, rural courtyard. Fickle fate was an immense hand, easily stirring up the skies and turning the earth upside down, easily cutting short a segment that hadn’t yet gotten warm, and running the friendship of youths into a dead end.
Fu Shen had been unwilling to recall the exact circumstances of that day, until now. He had come across many rough patches in his life, major life-or-death situations, every one of them graver and bloodier than this; he was also not a weak person who refused to confront something because he knew full well it was going to hurt. However, perhaps stemming from the first injury always being especially painful, this incident was a rare exception. As it was closely followed by a string of related misfortunes, it bitterly declared the termination of his boyhood.
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Chichi's Dives 
Hiks this chapter hurts so much, I know there’s still more story to it but still 😭😭😭
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My understanding of this entire backstory is that Fu Shen was too young. He lacked a real understanding of how their world works and his idealism/purity made it impossible for YX to disillusion him. I can only say that back then, they were the right people but the wrong time.
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YXH seems like someone way too deep for his age. He is very good at hiding his thoughts and emotions. Someone, who is always there to suffer on his loved one’s behalf, without letting out even a sigh, and yet, when it comes to himself, he prefers to lick his wounds all alone.
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This is super rough. At the same time I understand why Yan Xiaohan did what he did. Fu Shen probably thought that he would’ve succeeded in hiding Cai Yue if Yan Xiaohan didn’t rat him out. But if Yan Xiaohan noticed that Fu Shen and his friends seemed like they were hiding something, then it’s likely that the other Flying Dragon Guards did too. It’s also likely that they would have noticed when Fu Shen and Yi Siming went to visit Cai Yue (which was not a good idea.)
Fu Shen thought he could protect Cai Yue. Yan Xiaohan knew he couldn’t.
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OUCH
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First the bow, now the jade pendant..
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Shit…that ” my conscience is clear” I got chills…it’s really sad..the deception between mc and ml and the treachery of the emperor towards that innocent person
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Wow. Built up a load of trust and then smashed that trust into dust. How will they come back from this?
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Cai Yue is alive in the present. YXH might have broke Fu Shen’s trust for him, but he didn’t betray Fu Shen. I believe he had a reason for doing it. Perhaps he did it because the Emperor wouldn’t stop until they find that last of Jin’s blood, and it’ll be bad if FS will get implicated for ‘sheltering a criminal’, so YXH had to make it seem like they caught and killed him to end it.
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My heart cried for Fu Shen’s pain and lost of innocence 😭😭. This one betrayal of trust was deep.
Buuut.. Cai Yue didn’t really die. So I guess the one hurting was not only Fu Shen, but also Yan Xiao Han.
This was a really helpless situations. Yan’s master was a really shitty ruler, and what he did was understandable. Fu Shen’s pain was also understandable. And that was what made this story so beautifully sad 😢
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Thank you for your hard work Chichi! Love the depth and plots intertwining so far, even though I feel emotional pain for them ugh xD Hope there is more to what happened, than Fu Shen’s perspective!
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I feel like there has to be more to the story here. I want to know Yan Xiaohan’s side to this story. Did he really just use Fu Shen and betray him?
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What FS did was treason and it’s a death penalty, so from YX’s perspective, it’s better to lose FS’s trust rather than his life. Poor gege had to suffer silently, patiently accepting FS’s cold rebuffs for so many years. The heartache and yearning from both sides just kills me.
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My heart hurts :_(
Since this is a flashback, and Cai Yue is alive and well, I’m certain gege didn’t truly deceive him. It’s probably a fake deception (to protect FS) layered on top of the real deception (to trick the Emperor). I hope?
But it doesn’t take away from the pain and sadness of the situation. Tears for the loss of his innocence. It really came at a heavy cost, not just YX, but his brother/family, his trust in people and the security/comfort of his home.
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Can someone tell me what Yan Xiaohan did? Sorry my English is not the best. Did YX take the girl and child that Fu Shen was protecting/ hiding 👀🙈
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180 degree turnaround in just one chapter 😲
It’s so sad for FS to know that he has misjudged YXH all this time. 😳😲
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I can’t believe how sad this chapter is. Soooooo sad. I cried at the discovery of Yan Xiaohan’s deception and the confrotation. Booo-hooo. Fu Shen’s heart, oh my boy.
There is a double like here: ‘you and I are just like like this jade’
Thanks for the chapter!
Happy New year!
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Ah, shite. Thanks.
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wow not even me and I expected that betrayal I couldn’t believe it!
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Hmm inch resting
Thank you ~
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Thank you for picking up this story and working on it! I loved their interactions and the flow of the story that’s filled with sadness, and love and longing.
❤️💕This soft Marquis I can’t help but love him. Fu Shen is a really good child, such a cute puppy boy in his younger years
Also lol even though Yan Xiaohan seems genuine in his affection, I can’t help being fearful to trust him now that I know about this.
Hope to see more of them in the future
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